Peice by Peice

I've had 6 double shifts in a row, yesterday was surposed to be the 7th, i've spent more time at work than i have at home, i do 40- 50 hour weeks but i gave up the evening shift yesterday so i could go to the fair, although it rained so i laowed and stayed in as a family friend came over which in turn worked out really well. I also probably shouldn't be spending any money right now, for two reasons:

First, i'm paying £300 pounds in rent, which to me has been frustrating, i don't have a room, i sleep on a futon in my brothers room, i don't eat at home, i barely spend time there at all nowadays with work, i don't have the computer in my room anymore, on my 1 day off a week i get, or possibley a few mornings like this week, i have to do everything of my own, like washing, cleaning etc especially work clothes and can't just relax, then desperatly need to go back to the gym to carry on with army training although where i'm going to fit it in without having no sleep i don't know yet, then trying to fit some time for a social life? that just won't happen anymore. so when you see others having it so easy, where they don't work for it, they have it all done for them it drives me insane because i took it as that that was the normal, i shouldnt have to do this. i shouldnt have to have this much responsibility.

After sitting down and talking about it all yesterday with mum and our friend realised just how much things cost and how selfish i was being though, i'm not like the normal people, and some others have it far tougher than this and i just stoped careing about all the above. That 300 only just covers everything, like half of the water, electric, council tax etc, not including half the rent for the house and only has to happen until january, hopefully.

Secondly i want to save and finally put a plan into motion, i want to do all 8 levels of a skydiving course, it will take me 2-3 months of working none stop to pay for this, rent and the gym but i want to do something worth while, that and i consider my summer over after reading festival, that was king of the peak to my summer, everyone else leaves for uni after, travelling or other stuff so i dont really intend to go out and about anymore, that lifestyle is good for the summer time only really
(i'll also post about both festivals later on as i've had the double shifts, i've had no time)

So yeah, thats just whats been on my mind, now i've stoped careing it feels like a huge weight has gone, its odd to describe.

Anyways, something much lighter, i've currently run out of series to follow and we also don't have sky anymore so have resorted to pushing the boat out for over breakfast entertainment and have been watching "The secret diary of a call girl". It's awesome for so many reasons. i intend to go and buy the box set of rambo or something simliar to man up after i've got through all the series but until then, sex and prostitues will have to do